When your soul speaks…reinvent yourself and become a more powerful you.
“Don’t look for peace. Don’t look for any other state than the one you are in now; otherwise, you will set up inner conflict and unconscious resistance. Forgive yourself for not being at peace. The moment you completely accept your non-peace, your non-peace becomes transmuted into peace. Anything you accept fully will get you there, will take you into peace. This is the miracle of surrender.” – Eckhart Tolle
I have struggled over the last couple of years to accept myself as I am, not feeling comfortable with my emotions as I experience radical growing pains. Changing my whole life, and watching the disintegration of all that I had known in my life was more devastating than I thought possible. My old life where I felt successful, loved and confident, was fading into memory as if it were a dream.
For me, my decision to end my 30 yr. marriage, leave my business of 24 years, move across the country alone precipitated the darkest period of my life. I was answering the calling of my soul and my journey of awakening, though divinely guided, came with a hefty price.
I entered my Dark Night of the Soul and used all my familiar behaviors to will myself to heal. Believing there had to be something wrong with me, I exhausted all possible healing modalities with little success. I was afraid to let go and have faith and trust in life itself. I came to realize that I needed a deeper connection with my source … this was a spiritual journey. Could I reinvent myself? I didn’t know.
Awakening to who you truly are is a process that takes time and is individual to each person
I came to understand that giving birth to a new you is a process of awakening that moves like a spiral, which represents the journey as it ebbs and flows, two steps forward … one step back.
Over time hidden wisdom was revealed, and I realized I had been given a gift. My soul spoke to me … I was no longer willing to allow myself to stay in the self-imposed prison that I created in my life that included shame, guilt and a lack of self-worth.
My personal surrender was to recognize that my old life no longer served my soul, and it was time for me to become free to live the grandest version of me.
It was time to go deeper, become more authentically me. I had no map … only my deep longings and love of myself to lead the way to the bright light inside my heart.
So, I surrendered (and keep surrendering) to the “ what is” of life knowing that through accepting where I am right now and not resisting what life is asking of me in each moment, I am growing and flourishing beyond my wildest imagination.
Can you Surrender your Stories?
I also recognize that to surrender means that I must let go of the old outdated stories I have come to identify as “me”, which are nothing more than lies I have been telling myself much of my life. I have discovered that it is easier said than done.
Some days it requires that I slay the dragon over and over until my fears lay down their arms, and I surrender to the intention of love inside my heart. This is my choice … living a life of purpose and passion requires a commitment to your soul. I am here to help you discover your authentic voice.
Realize the benefits of your own Soul‘s journey — check out my book, Hugging Trees in the Dark Finding the Courage to Free the Heart…now available on Amazon. Also, I offer one on one coaching to assist you in making your personal transformation. In love, RJ
My past podcasts and blogs can be found at www.robinjillian.com and awakenradio.net.